Now, granted, Waco’s downtown is really more of an Old Town, but it’s pretty much as close as I could get. I did get to spend the weekend in downtown Denver, and it was a much needed dose of skyline-and-sidewalks for this city girl.
There’s just something about a downtown. The contagious energy, the heightened pace, the schedules colliding, the people rushing, or strolling. Everything seems faster and bigger, and I think the best of it is that you’re a part of it. Some might say they feel anonymous in a big city, but I don’t think that’s an option. Just because you’re not running into acquaintances on every corner doesn’t mean you’re not known. By being in a city, you breathe the same air and dreams of everyone around you. You’re a part of something much bigger than yourself. You’re not so much anonymous as you are integral, in a finite way, which is pretty much the most exciting thing ever. Although, to be fair, I’m also someone that doesn’t mind being a cog in a wheel–just as long as it’s a big and necessary wheel.
Something I’ve been working on, recently, is internalizing things. Not in a bad way, like suppressing emotions or whatnot (if you know me, you know how ironic it is that I have to clarify that; emotions are my comfort zone), but in centering myself, so that what’s external doesn’t matter. I don’t want to be someone who changes with context.
Okay, so Waco doesn’t have a skyline. That doesn’t mean I have to lose the energy and excitement of being in downtown, just because my location changed. I oughtn’t lose my purpose, my part-of-something-bigger mentality, when I’m in a different place. And I think that applies to much more than cityscapes. My joy should be constant, my peace continual, and my gratitude sustained (*cough* 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 *cough*), regardless of situation. I’m all about streets flanked by massive glass-buildings, coffee shops on every corner and streets teeming with people. But every now and then, maybe I should be more about making sure where I’m at internally is just as aesthetic.